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And THIS TIME I CHOOSE MYSELF

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This Is Me Letting You Go Dear You, I waited before writing this. Not because I didn’t know what to say, but because I wanted my words to come from peace, not pain. Loving you was never my regret. What hurt wasn’t loving you, it was loving someone who wasn’t fully sure. And I deserve certainty. I stayed longer than I should have, not because I was weak, but because I believed in US. I believed feelings grow. I believed confusion fades. I believed love, if real, becomes brave. But I have learned something quietly powerful: If someone needs too much time to choose you, they are already choosing something else. Maybe fear. Maybe comfort. Maybe themselves. And that’s okay. I don’t hate you. I don’t even resent you. I just refuse to shrink anymore. I refuse to make myself easier to leave. Quieter to keep. Smaller to hold. I loved you honestly. I showed up. I stayed, when nobody else really did. I tried. And now, I release. Not dramatically. Not loudly. Just with dignity. You wer...
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KAJU DAY it is ❤️

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To my dearest LOVE❤️ Happy Birthday to the one my heart chose before I even understood what love truly meant 🥺❤️🧿✨ There are so many things I carry inside me when I think of you, Kaju… and today feels like the day I should let every single feeling breathe or maybe just to say it write I waited for today to tell you why 23 feb is not just this, it's my KAJU DAY for me...💌💭 From the first conversations when you held my written interview to the first hello that felt ordinary like that of an acquaintances… to the days that became my safe place… to now, standing in 2026 with a heart that belongs to you ✨ You didn’t become special when you entered my life…Youu became irreplaceable when you became mine❤️💋🧿🙈 Sleeping next to you while holding your hand is the most special feeling in the world to me 🫶🏻🤍 In that quiet moment, when the world slows down and your fingers rest in mine, something inside me settles 🌙✨ Before you, sleep was never calm my mind wandered, my he...
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Who cares about the WIN 💔

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They say He Lost one of the most amazing thing but I Feel Like I Lost my Everything.... . They tell me he lost. They whisper, “His loss.” But my nights knows a different story. I remember folding my pride into a small, manageable square and carrying it back to him. I remember dialing his number with my heart loud enough to drown out the part of me that knew better. I remember lying obviously not for cruelty, but because truth sometimes sounded too fragile, too sharp, and I wanted to stitch us together even if the stitches were crooked. I remember emptying pockets of myself as in my friends left on the pavement of our arguments because I chose to chase a version of us. I let the people who saw me whole fade into the background so his silhouette could fill the frame. I told myself his contradictions were incomprehensible poetry. I turned his silence into an ocean of meaning and his absence into an exam I was destined to pass. I polished him into a hero in my story and careful...
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Letter to my future boyfriend- Part 1

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  Dear Love, I'm not sure where you are, or whether you are aware of me or my existence on this planet, but before you fall in love with me, there are some things you should know. First of all, I'm a bit of a mess. Once you enter my life, it will be difficult for you to exit because my attachments are permanent. I'll do everything in my power to make you stay, so if you're just looking to pass the time, it was nice meeting you handsome. I'm a bit of an exceptional case like me a very unique, pain-in-the-ass, hooligan-type personality kind of a person. While some guys fall for a cute smile, I'm more likely to make you run away with my crazy personality and lazy tendencies. I still watch cartoons like Doraemon and Shin Chan, and I don't plan on stopping anytime soon. I know that even when I'm in my eighties, I'll still be watching those cartoons from my rocking chair with a few teeth left in my mouth. nothing stops me from being crazy not even my age. ...
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Letter to my lost love ❤

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Dear Love, Oh! I'm sorry, I meant my lost and gone love. Now I am left with zero insecurities and doubts, and there won't be any more clingy behaviour or anything that you started hating (despite the fact that you started to hate everything I do). My everything, yes-yes, MY everything was clear when there was no return call from your side when I suddenly cut the call. Even when you heard my heavy voice, there was no return message about what happened and you didn't even bother to ask why I didn't complete our conversation and hung up in the middle. I knew you were gone (my intuition is never wrong. I hope you remember how much you believed in my intuitive sense). I didn't try to call you back even after a couple of hours had passed because I knew you were no longer MINE, and also, I understood that you were only mine at the cost of my self-respect. Sitting on the ground, resting my back on a tree trunk, I stood up quickly, took the deepest of breaths, and murmured, ...
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Broken Love❤️💔

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Have you ever loved someone with all your heart just to hear Sorry, I can’t love you back or anymore? Dear someone Who broke my heart, It did not work out. Everything I ever wished for had come crashing down with a peculiar combination of words that I never thought would bear such significance in my life. I had imagined a life with you, I won’t shy away from accepting that and it was probably too early for me to do that, but without a guilt, Yes, I did. I wish I had not stayed up late that night for you to tell me about how everything was wrong with our relationship. It might just have postponed the impending disaster that I never saw was coming. I wish you had dropped a few hints along the way to let me know that the love was fading away with every conversation we did not have! There wasn’t much I could have done better. I had been guilty of taking things for granted in the past and the future that I wish we had, I wanted that to exist. I still remember how I had begun to watch a few ...
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I loved, Actually LOVE you❤️

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LOVE- I STILL DO🫰🏻 Happy 1.9 yrs babe ❤, these were the last message you sent me despite the fact it never became whole 2. I now realise how happy would “ 2yrs babe ” be, but, Never happened, I remember how that night instead of cuddly text messages, you and I were consoling each other and wished and told one another to turn to different paths because we believed even if we get happy together again, we will be Happier after choosing different pathways all in the opposite directions and never colliding with each other’s way in future. ✍🏻 I remember how clingy, I was and I also remember how you used to always say, babe, we will make it through this Long Distance, but that Never happened together, instead we broke down as me and you.Your never waved goodbye, wait I really don't want good to ruin by adding it in the suffix So, your unacted and never-said wave was the turning point for me to break down into someone I never was.  🙇‍♀️ Do you remember how happy as a kid I was? nothing...
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